hold on

I

hate

waiting.

My current job ends in one month and one day.

It's so hard to wait for the right job to come. The struggle for perseverance and the desire to just settle for a job collide inside my heart everyday now. It has become such a struggle that I don't want to wake up in the morning. Even getting out of bed and brushing my teeth feels like a huge insurmountable task. I know God is with me and he's for me and has a plan, but I have to confess I've been believing lies that say he's forgotten about me and doesn't care what I do.

Look at the night skies:

Who do you think made all this?

Who marches this army of stars out each night, 

counts them off, calls each by name

-so magnificent! so powerful!-

and never overlooks a single one?

Why would you ever complain, O Jacob, 
or whine, Israel, saying,

"God has lost track of me. 
He doesn't care what happens to me"?

Don't you know anything? Haven't you been listening?

God doesn't come and go. God lasts.

He's Creator of all you can see or imagine.

He doesn't get tired out, doesn't pause to catch his breath.

And he knows everything, inside and out.

He energizes those who get tired, 
gives fresh strength to dropouts.

For even young people tire and drop out, 

young folk in their prime stumble and fall.

But those who wait upon God get fresh strength.

They spread their wings and soar like eagles,

They run and don't get tired,

they walk and don't lag behind."

(Isaiah 40:26-31, MSG)

I'm currently at this place. It's lovely, and they have delicious coffees and juices <3.